Well, that was.....awkward.

[lunadelcorvo]

It had to happen eventually. And it did. Here I sat, while my son was fencing. Here I was, minding my own business, reading. And in he walked. Yes, him. Dr. B. I had maybe 2 seconds from spotting him coming up the walk to take a breath and then there he was. I said hello, he said hello, I told him why I was here (why did I feel the need to justify myself to him?) Then he continued off round the corner; visiting the restroom, I suspect. So here I sat, and waited. Certainly propriety dictated he at least stop on his way past me, exchange a few words? No. When he left, he walked right by me as if I wasn't even here. Didn't look my way, didn't acknowledge me. And then he was gone.

Well, I guess that tells the tale doesn't it? Is it enough for the closure I've felt I needed? I'm not sure. He mattered to me, I trusted him. He betrayed me, he hurt me. Why it is harder to forget the ones who hurt us than the ones we hurt? Is it, really? I don't know. It certainly seems I'm a closed chapter for him. And I certainly think he should be for me. I just can't ever seem to let things go so easily. It's a flaw.

Comments

[toll-booth.livejournal.com]

I don't know the back story, but whatever he did to you, I'm so sorry.

[raven-moon.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for that! Really, it was a big, stupid, political, rumor-mill, backstabbing, infighting, bunch of crap. But after a year of friendship, and going out of his way to tell me our friendship was important to him, etc...instead of playing straight with me, he pretty much hung me out to dry without ever telling me why. Of course, not having any idea about any of it, I went on like everything was peachy, no doubt making everything worse for myself, and probably him, too. Gah - why can't people just SAY things, ya know?

Anyway, it was all jut stupid and awful, and I never really got the chance to air it all out. But we still run in the same circles, so we were bound to cross paths, and now we have....

[toll-booth.livejournal.com]

It won't be the same, but you can let it all out on LJ if you need to. I won't judge, I promise. :)